I guess my ex is ashamed of me.
She sent a bag of my stuff with her brother when I met him for drinks tonight. No message about it or anything. I saw him and he had a large bag with him and he said it was mine.
Man, she must really be avoiding me. I guess she’s always been someone who tries to avoids her problems though. She stonewalls when we get into arguments. When she got in trouble from her previous boss, she quit her job immediately (even though it was technically her fault). She decided to cheat instead of talk to me about our issues. And now she’s avoiding me and anyone who has anything to do with me like the plague.
I’m a little peeved. I thought I’d at least be important enough to her that she’d at least let me know about stuff that involves me.
I guess she’s used to having people take care of things for her. Now that I think about it, even when she was on poor terms with her father, she made no efforts to approach the issue or correct it.
Whatever. I’m done.
I’m not even mad anymore. This is the kind of person she is. She’s not going to feel remorseful or guilt from this. If anything, she probably has a “If he wants me, he’d try harder and get back together with me” attitude, not knowing that she’s actively pushing me away whenever I try. Or maybe she thinks, once she’s done her little stint, I’d welcome her back with open arms.
Or maybe she thinks this affair with a married father will work out in the end, even though he blatantly admitted he’s just using her to escape his current home.
Whatever it is, I can’t be concerned with it anymore. She’s not even treating me as a fellow human being, she’s treating me like dirt. I have standards. And I deserve to be treated better than shit. I know this isn’t what she’s intending to do – she’s probably confused about her feelings and she’s trying to make things easier by avoiding me. But this is the result, and all it means is she’s too much of a child to face her mistakes.
She can talk to me once again when she grows up.