Yeah, I guess I’m slowing down on these.
When I first created this blog, I wanted to do it everyday. I wanted to understand my own needs, wants, and thoughts better. I think of a lot of things on a regular basis, and blogging helped me keep my thoughts straight or flesh out other thoughts.
I wanted to fill a void left behind by my ex. Writing was a good way to sort out my thoughts and focus my energies on something else.
It’s both a good and bad sign.
The fact that I’m not relying on making blog posts is good – it means that emotionally, I’m in a better place now. I don’t have to rely on something like this in order to have a happy and fulfilling life.
On the other hand, I’m becoming less disciplined. Forcing myself to write even when I didn’t have any good blog topics was a good way to get my creative mind going. It also kind of feels like I’m giving up on my original intent, which was a blog post a day.
I’m not going to quit cold turkey – I’m just not going to guilt myself into doing this anymore. I’ll probably still be posting 4-5 times a week still, but hopefully this way I’ll have more fleshed out ideas and thoughts. I won’t slave at the computer until my eyes barely open and end the blog post in a comfortable way.
To be honest, I’m not sure why I’m saying this. I kind of doubt anyone regularly reads my blog posts.
But if you do, I want you to know I’m still going to be around. I’m not saying that I don’t like doing this anymore, but I want my posts to be fleshed out and thought out as opposed to my previous rant-a-day.
To all you readers, take care of yourselves.